Don't know about you, but I'm so ready for 2016 to be finished. Sorry, it's just true. Kimberly Harrington wrote an excellent article for medium.com a few days ago and it's now one of my favorites. Because it hits the nail on the head - this has been a shithole year.
You see, early in January, I met a pretty fucking awesome guy and we've been seeing each other for months. Will it last? Will it be forever? I don't have the answer for you (or me, or him) but for me, it's been a bright spot in otherwise dismal time. And, I also keep thinking - huh, if I was working at the crazy, stressful job that I had the past three years, I might not have been open to meeting him and certainly would not have had the time or energy to devote to him or to our relationship the way I have these past 6 months. We've been able to go out and do things that I haven't done in years - like spend all night at a dance club, for example. Not something I can (or want to) do all the time, but every few weeks/months has been a really nice change from the semi hermetic life I'd been living more recentlyish.
It's a kind of odd way of looking at a job less time, I suppose, but, in the end, I kind think of it as a nice gift from the universe. And by the way, I've often spoken about bfs in the past and it's been a bit of a mixed bag results-wise with how it makes me and them feel. So, I hesitated even writing this much but thought that my friends and colleagues would like to know that there's been some positive motion in my life in this area (you know, considering I'm constantly flirting from the stage LOL) :)
And, while I'm not sure how or when or if a creative (non Will Clark) project I've been noodling around on will ever come to fruition, suffice to say that I've re-discovered a part of my creative life that I long ago abandoned and frankly, never much thought that I'd be able to pick up again. Creative types will understand. Creative types will also understand the roller coaster ride of self doubt that often kidnaps rational thought and prevents that creativity from flowing. My level of talent doesn't hold me back, my self doubt does.
Anyway, so despite this truly deranged Election, Brexit, the multiple celebrity deaths, an incalculable volume of shootings, bombings and other horrors, I am trying to also see what good things have happened. It's not a long list, but it's definitely something, and today, and probably tomorrow and the next day, it'll have to be the silver lining that I hold on to.
July 20, 2016